Saturday, June 17, 2006

Completely lost in this MESS!!

Being the kind of girl who’s pleased when she’s right and the kind of girl who will always say “told you so” , but at this time I’m not pleased at all, cause I’m right about life being not able to give me back wat i want and my mind is telling my broken heart “I told you so”...

I don’t want to look back, cause i know what.. its not going to help me. Just accept the present and learn from the past so maybe in the future i wont want to look back anymore. I always ask from fate where are you when I need you, where are you when I’m hurt.. & where are you when I don’t need you, where are you when I’m finally happy without you, where are you when I think I’m over you… You’re right beside me asking for another chance… but how can it work this way?? And as much I say I don’t like you this way, more i think about the way it could have been. All I wanna do is have some stability, and I’ve got a feeling I’m not the only one everything is finally working out for everyone, everyone is getting everything they want. i`m extremely happy for them because they all deserve it, but i can`t help but to wonder why it can`t happen to me..

Mess? This isn't a mess. It's my way of looking at organization called LIFE

Tryin to see if i am perfect, n thought of changing my name to nobody... I dont lie, I just sometimes forget to tell some tiny little details…We live in a world where time means everything, but no one has got any. Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans

Some things in this life are too much fun to only have ones in some cases.. Unbelievable pleasure… Life is like glass. It is better to leave it broken than to hurt yourself trying to piece it back together. There are things you don't want to happen, but you gotta accept .. there are things that you don't want to know, but you have to learn .. and there are people you can't live without, but you have to let go. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It's means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

Sometimes you need to run away to see what will follow you. Never try to hold on to something that is no longer there, it will just hurt you even more. It’s not a matter of forgiveness, it’s a matter of changing, something that you just can’t seem to do … Don’t make someone a priority who only makes you an option.
Is it the fear of losing everything…

You can always close your eyes to the things you don't wanna see...but you can't close your heart to the things you don't wanna feel. I've got a mind boggling, sense numbing, heart pounding, stomach flipping, take my breath away, head over heels, knee slapping, daydreaming, butterfly fluttering now when i am talking of Fate of Life..
no matter how many coins you throw in a fountain, or the number of fingers you cross, if it's not meant to be, it won't happen..

Some things are easier when we walk away and act normal as far as normal is normal… Let the pain flow trough your heart and let the truth be told… Everything cost something, some things cost everything. It's not about keeping your promises, it's about following your heart.

The simple things mean the most. When you think everything is good, the good decides to go. Being diseved is like being cut, the pain hurts, and even after you've forgotten it and maybe even forgiven, theres still the scar to remind you it was there.

Sometimes in life, You make a right, When later you realize You should have made a left. ...And by the time you realize You should have made a left, It’s too late... You’re lost. This isn't a perfect world - people do get 'hurt', you 'smile' when you feel like 'crying', you act like you're "okay" when you're falling apart, you let go and move on because there is NOTHING else you can do.

Life's funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard, like when you fall in love with someone but they forget to love you back, like when your best friend or your boyfriend leave you alone, like when you pull the trigger or light the flame,& you can't take it back. Like I said, in sports, they call this stepping up. In life, I call it pushing back .
The best things in life aren't actually things.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Indescribable Mood!!

Why i have to become happy and frustrated and pissed off all at the same time??? I'm sick of the situations where i can't make up my mind. I want to be released from the presures of ....everything. I keep thinking I need something in my life , but the truth is I don't. I need to do something to get my life in order and just not give a shit about people around me anymore. All they do is bug your head and your life and screw up your plans. I'm gonna start making plans with me in mind. I'm gonna do what's good for me and if someone wants to join in along the way then great, but I will know that the choices I'm making are for me and are my ideas. I feel right now like i'm going crazy. Maybe I just need to shut myself off from the crazys that surround me.

I just wish I could figure my life out. Everytime I think I understand what's going on...Something twists or turns it. Something makes it become soemthing else. Then I feel like I'm back to square one again. I just want to find where I belong... my place in this world... what God has in store for me. I feel like he keeps giving me twists and turns and I just want to tell him i can't take it anymore. I want to scream in frustration!!!Jesus I'm sick of this indescribable mood of mine!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Girl N Grown Women!!

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to
call and make plans.
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits in.

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need

Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it-- using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come.
Grown women make you come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man's time (i.e, don't want him
hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the ''together time even more special -- and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.

Girls fall in love,chase aimlessly after the object of their affection,
ignoring all signs'.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't
always love you back-- and move on, without bitterness.

This is something i read n I freaking LOVED it!! It's soooo true too!! I will admit it though currently am between the Girl and Grown Women.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

What you too?

Received this quote as a sms on my cell and thought to share it.

"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one!'"
-- C.S. Lewis

It's not exactly like the point in Art of Living last day session but still remembered when we are asked to share our life our struggles, frustrations, or vulnerabilities with the conversation partners. Inevitably, the people are paralyzed at first, fearing that their conversation partners will think less of them. But after you start sharing, can't get to stop talking because everyone has had similar experiences or know people who have and they start offering advice, contacts, and understanding.

Its so strange i thought when i read that but then later on thinking of it i can recall a couple of names in my life were we started our friendship with

"What! You too? I thought I was the only one!"